Anonymous asked: Hi Erica! I'm one of your followers, but it seems that you don't receive any of my messages :( so I was thinking.. Is it tumblr or did I do something wrong? :( sorry if I did though x Felicia

Hi Felicia! Wait…I don’t want to confuse you with anyone else but you are the Felicia with a stroberi right…? If so then I actually haven’t been getting any messages from you in a while ; A; Have you been sending lots of messages? And if you are this Felicia, then you haven’t done anything wrong at all. Don’t worry :) tumblr has just been eating more and more of my messages, both messages sent to me and messages I try to send back apparently OTL [Have you tried the fanmail option? I’m told that it’s fairly reliable though I’ve also been told that sometimes fanmail is eaten too > 3< It might be another option for sending me messages though.]

And if you’re not that Felicia and you’re an Anon with that name then I also haven’t had many Anon mails that have any kinds of signatures on them > 3< So I’m not sure. But yes, the same thing about messages being eaten still applies. I’m sorry if it seems I’m ignoring you ; A ; But I promise. I’m not doing it on purpose.

Anonymous asked: So your happy one day and then sad the next day. Then the next day you're sad again and then happy again. Your broken.

O U O I’m sorry to disappoint you, Anon. But being happy then sad and then happy and sad again are all part of being Human. Not being broken. We all have fluctuating emotions. That’s part of the territory of going through life. Things are unexpected. You get unexpectedly sad. And then out of the blue someone might say something, or you might hear a song you love, or see a person you love…it could be anything really, and you’ll feel unexpectedly happy.

There is no rule anywhere that says a person must only be sad. Or a person who is sad can’t be happy. Things just don’t work like that. Honestly, I wouldn’t want things to just be like that. Life would become mundane and colorless. Things like happiness and sadness would become such a trivial thing; I wouldn’t find joy in any of that.

But, if you really, truly, feel that I’m broken…then I’m proud that I’m broken. Feeling change is better than feeling nothing :)

I was in a fairly good mood today but I just got a message that’s pretty much put me over the moon (//U//) *laugh* Sorry that has nothing to do with this scenario. I just…wanted you all to know…I guess. Hahaha~

Anyway, for this scenario, I was inspired when it was raining and some puddles formed on the sidewalk in front of my house. And through random clicking and related videos I found this song that inspired me to work the idea for Sungjong. [In the lyrics he sings: “You’re chubby and cute, and you look pretty to me”. So BOOP! Sungjong’s name was written all over that.] I hope you enjoy? Both the song and the scenario? :)

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Sunggyu was almost glaring holes into your face when he opened the door to their dorm that morning. He squinted and sighed, then without another word he turned and walked back in.

You hesitated at the door. He didn’t exactly invite you in and you weren’t sure if you’d be intruding if you entered.

He stopped and turned around, “Aren’t you coming in?”

You stammered an affirmative and shuffled into the dorm. You slipped your shoes off and walked in after shutting the door.

As you followed Sunggyu in, you made sure to keep a suitable distance between the both of you. He stopped short suddenly and turned around to face you again.

“Yah.” he blinked. You swallowed the lump in your throat.

“Yes?” you stuttered again.

“It’s because you’re going out that I wasn’t able to sleep.” he sighed.

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Anonymous asked: Really, Erica. No other writer on tumblr is quite like you are. Everytime I see one of your ask scenarios come up I feel this swelling in my heart because I know you do them because you care so much. I always wonder how we as your fans can repay you for your existance. Just saying that I love you and what you do feels so tiny.

Oh, Anon. Just this in itself means so much to me.

; 3; You really, really, REALLY don’t need to repay me anything for existing. I’m humbled that you think so but really…and being told that you love me and my writing already feels like too much > 3< *laugh*

I’m the one who is grateful and humbled by all of YOU. Without you guys I probably wouldn’t have gotten so into writing Infinite scenarios. I probably wouldn’t have started writing so happily again either :) And I write because I genuinely enjoy it and I really do enjoy writing little things and making others feel better. I don’t want to sound ungrateful, but I don’t really need anything in return when I already receive so much ; u ;

Really, there’s no repayment needed between friends, no? (//U//)

Anonymous asked: Hi Erica! I'm not really one to request anything, but I just...One of my closest friends passed away yesterday due to a hit and run driver. My other friend is barely holding on, and nothing I have tried has made me feel anything at all. I feel so empty. May I please get a short cheer up scenario with Sungyeol? I just want to feel again. If you can't, I understand (you must be so stressed yourself!), but thank you so much for reading this.

; A ; I’m so sorry for your loss. My deepest condolences. I can probably only grasp what that feels like. I know that it feels tough right now, but I’m sure your friend wouldn’t be happy to see you all mourning forever. Still, take the time that you need. No one should tell anyone to just flat out stop mourning. It takes time. So do what you must; just remember that you need to use your strength to pick yourself back up. And should you need that crutch, that hand or shoulder, I will always be here as well. We may be far apart but my thoughts go to you in this time.

It might not be much but I’ll stuff something under this cut. Please be safe ; w ;

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Anonymous asked: Hi :) im a new reader but I saw that you bring comfort to your readers when they need it. Now, im not asking for a scenario, but I wouod like some words of comfort. I was supposed to get an award today but the people presenting blindsighted me and gave it to a previous recipient who wasnt in the right year for it. Im feeling really down and would love some words of encouragement :) (but I understand if you cant, its a pretty weird situation....)

They what? D: I hope that they gave you a good reason or at least a proper explanation at some point. That’s not fair to you at all especially if you knew, and they told you, that it was to be yours :( And a previous recipient? That means the person got it once before, no? Muh. Last minute changes like this always get me steamed. They really should have put your feelings into consideration as well.

But you know…I use the word a lot, though not lightly, but it could just be Fate. Maybe there’s something after this, something bigger than what you’ve just experienced, and it’s just waiting for you now. I know it really sucks that it was given to someone else, I absolutely understand the feeling, but keep your chin up. I don’t know what this award was for but if you were going to receive this award then I know you’re doing something amazing; something special. So if you keep doing what you’re doing, something good is bound to come your way :) 

[I’m sorry I sound like a defective fortune cookie D: I hope that it cheered you up a little though. ; 3;]

“And then you realize that where ever you go / there you are / time won’t stop / so we keep moving on”
— Be the light

This was my Anthem of the day. And well…I’m doing better. But I’m signing off for now because my eyes are a little sore OTL
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It wasn’t unusual to see Sunggyu come walking into the room with a box full of gifts. You’d become accustomed to it to the point that it didn’t bother you anymore. That was just part of the territory of going out with an Idol; you knew it and accepted it.

He placed his box on the table and walked over to you and pressed a kiss to the top of your head, “I’m going to go shower.”

He promptly walked away and you listened as he walked around the house. He opened his drawer for his clothes and shut the door behind him as he entered the bathroom. And then you heard him turn on the water in the shower.

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Anonymous asked: Just take your time Erica. None of us are going to go anywhere until the day you stop writing. Or you know what you should do? Write it out. Pretend you sent yourself a request for an ask scenario and let out all of your pent up rage. It might make you feel better.

; A ; Thank you. Ahm…I just…I get so zoomed in on my problems that it’s so hard to zoom out and see it for the bigger picture. I am much better now. But…well…the family members that I fought with, they’re the type to go away and come back while pretending that it didn’t happen. And I am still hurt. I’m still zoomed in. It’s like someone has slapped their hands over my eyes and I can’t see anything. Ugh. Anyway…I will do my best to…I don’t know…to get better? OTL I have no clue what I’m talking about anymore.

; U ; I think I will go and write it out though. But you might regret telling me to do so. Ahaha…because in moments like these, I clearly shine as a Sunggyu bias. It’s no so much a feeling of rage though. I have a feeling of depression tinged with rage maybe? But still there’s hope. :)

Thank you though, Anon. I appreciate your kindness.

Anonymous asked: I was wondering, but I don't want to be a bother, but how much work went into your V-Day scenario? You don't have to answer if you don't want to though, Unni.

You’re not a bother at all, Anon :D Though the process was rather boring…to be honest. [If you haven’t read this one yet you can find it here]

I started off with a basic plot, which I won’t spoil for those who maybe haven’t read this particular scenario just yet, and then I worked out what would push the reader character onwards. From there I worked on a mini, and rather simple and lame, school layout while just focusing on the main rooms I would need and how it would need to be laid out to make the scenario work. So…I needed to make sure that the paths lead to the right place in case I used the same room twice. Then it was all just a matter of writing it and then making sure that it ran fairly smoothly O U O)b But I mean, it did take me almost a week to get it all done *laugh* All of the nearly 35 MS Word pages and 9,500+ words. I felt accomplished after all of it though~<3 It’s one of the scenarios that I put A LOT of work into. Especially since it took so much planning ^^ This is what my draw-up sheet looked like [again, it was too easy to read so I blurred it out a bit for those who haven’t read this one]:

[I want to do another of these but I’m kind of working out the kinks in the plot O 3O And it’s just been a slow process, due to both lack of motivation and stress but…I do have one I’m trying to work on :D Don’t get too excited though *laugh* It might take me more than a few months to get off my butt and try to work on it. I’d like to work on and finish my Infinite Tower Series more than anything though ; A;]

Anonymous asked: Your bloodtype is...

the other thing that ties me closer to Hoya other than the year of our birth. :D I’m AB blood type. *laugh*

I had tried to finish this in Part 4 but I liked the ending so this Final Part is rather short, like the first Part was short. But I just needed closure. > 3< Thank you for keeping up with this little spur-of-the-moment Series. I’ll probably be going back to work on ‘Want’ after this. So enjoy?
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So I was put into a writing mood thanks to a certain someone out there. And I went through a phase of Dongwoo feels but I didn’t know what I wanted to write *laugh* So I shuffled my English music around for about an hour before this song came on and of course the idea had to be for Gyu. Just because he is my Muse (//U//) I hope you give the song a chance, because it’s one of my favorites, and enjoy?

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He hadn’t seen you in ages and it was starting to feel like it. He wasn’t sure when he saw you last. His mind just couldn’t picture the day in his mind. Was it sunny? Had it been raining? Were you wearing blue or was it green?

He was always confident about things when it came to you. He knew what foods you liked and disliked, he knew which colors you loved and which you hated, he knew the things that made you cry and the things that made you laugh. But now, he wasn’t sure if what he knew was getting jumbled with the things he liked and disliked.

He wanted to blame the fact that he was an Idol. He wanted to curse his status. He always thought to himself: “If only I was normal…” There were so many ways to end those thoughts. If he was normal he could date you in the open. If he was normal he could hold your hand walking down the street. He could start a family, he could have kids, and he’d have that house he knew you were so fond of.

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So it might just be one more part after this…I think. And I also mentioned last chapter that I figured out where this was coming from…just so I’m not swamping you all in asks I’ve received about it…this is all pretty much from the depths of my soul. ^^ Annnnnnnnd~ Enjoy? [I’m feeling a little raw after writing this so I’ll be going to sleep ; 3; At 9:50PM only *laugh* Chat with you all tomorrow or the day after though. Good night~<3]

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Anonymous asked: Your playing Line Play?! What's your account? Do you use your diary thing to?

O U O I am~ Because it looked too cute *laugh* My little person’s name is “Erica Musing” Or is it the code you need? I’m not sure what that’s for really… Anyway, I didn’t want to use my cellphone to connect so I used my FB account and it took my whole name which I didn’t care for so I changed it a little > 3< And yes! I’m using the diary as well~ :D I haven’t kept a diary in ages so it’s kind of refreshing *laugh* But like I mentioned I’m still new so I’m still just kind of floating along. [Which is why I waited to reply to you > 3< Sorry about that. I had to make sure I at least kind of knew what I was doing otherwise I might have just given up OTL]

If you’re playing Line Play it’d be lovely to be friends (//U//) Plus there’s a chat option~<3 So I think it’d be kind of cool~