Anonymous asked: WHY DON'T YOU UPDATE MORE LATELY?! IF YOU TAKE SO LONG YOU SHOULD JUST QUIT.
I haven’t been myself lately. I put on a front at work in front of my boss and co-workers. The kids bring an honest smile out of me. Anxiety is eating at me from the inside out. My friends want me to be more social but I’m scared. I want to curl up in bed with a hot cup of tea and a good book and maybe even a video game with Sunggyu’s voice singing in my ear, through my iTouch of course. I want to find a cool place in the shade and hide. Let my imagination drift away. Because lately, I haven’t had the chance. I’m overwhelmed by nightmares and I’m so tired but going to sleep also scares me.
I’m sorry that you’re stressing out about my recent update schedule, or lack thereof, but I don’t want to write anything depressing. Yet I can’t force myself to write something upbeat. The little drabbles I’ve written out have been lackluster and too melancholy for my taste.
I will earnestly try to work on something for tomorrow. Please understand that I’m an emotional wreck and I can’t be forced to update everyday of my life even though I wish I could.
With that all said, I will never quit just because someone tells me to. I have been given so much support; I will not quit until I am satisfied that I am done.
Thank you. :)