Musings of the Lost Beyond

): It really amazes me how rude some people can be to you when you're nothing but sweet and loving to all of us. It amazes me even more how nice you can be to people who are so rude to you, Erica. Major props to you. I hope you're feeling better today. Don't push yourself to write if you don't feel like it. Even if you only update a couple times a month I would never stop following you or stop reading your scenarios. LOVE YOU!

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 18:46:58 -1000

O U O It’s fine. As sad as it is to say, I’ve gotten used to it *laugh* And I’m just not that type > 3< I really feel that being rude to people who are rude to me doesn’t get anyone anywhere :) You know? “An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind” I do admit that I am less cheery with rude people though…that can’t be helped though, I guess. Hahaha~

And I’m much better today, I will admit. I convinced my Mom to help me out and my hair is red again~<3 Thank gosh. And it’s been enough to make me happy about….well…everything…maybe?

Still thank you Anon. And to everyone who sent me an ask or kind comment yesterday, and today as well, I wasn’t upset about the ask but you guys made me feel better :D

WHY DON'T YOU UPDATE MORE LATELY?! IF YOU TAKE SO LONG YOU SHOULD JUST QUIT.

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 20:45:30 -1000

Ah…I’m sorry.

I haven’t been myself lately. I put on a front at work in front of my boss and co-workers. The kids bring an honest smile out of me. Anxiety is eating at me from the inside out. My friends want me to be more social but I’m scared. I want to curl up in bed with a hot cup of tea and a good book and maybe even a video game with Sunggyu’s voice singing in my ear, through my iTouch of course. I want to find a cool place in the shade and hide. Let my imagination drift away. Because lately, I haven’t had the chance. I’m overwhelmed by nightmares and I’m so tired but going to sleep also scares me.

I’m sorry that you’re stressing out about my recent update schedule, or lack thereof, but I don’t want to write anything depressing. Yet I can’t force myself to write something upbeat. The little drabbles I’ve written out have been lackluster and too melancholy for my taste.

I will earnestly try to work on something for tomorrow. Please understand that I’m an emotional wreck and I can’t be forced to update everyday of my life even though I wish I could.

With that all said, I will never quit just because someone tells me to. I have been given so much support; I will not quit until I am satisfied that I am done.

Thank you. :)

D: Yoon Mi isn't going to be a regular like Hee Sung and Min Ki!? WAE!?

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 16:52:06 -1000

> 3< Because I didn’t put any thought into her. ; 3; I’m really sorry. I asked a friend to pick her name at random really. She doesn’t have an age or a favorite color or favorite hobby :( All she is right now is a name. Also, I really don’t want to start to make too many Daddy Series. I’m really partial to Min Ki and poor little Hee Sung has been left to the side to make room for other things I want to write.

But if I do decide to work with Yoon Mi more I’ll be sure to have them here so…I don’t want to get your hopes up by saying “Look forward to it” but…OTL just…keep an eye out, I guess? Thank you for the interest in Yoon Mi though :)

What do you do for a living, Erica?

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 22:03:00 -1000

Fangirl. *laugh*

On a serious note, I’m a student :) I’ve been slowly taking my time with classes while working part time on campus. People have asked me if running this blog is what I do for a living but that’s so far from the truth. This blog in no way earns me money nor can I live off running this blog.

As for part time work, I work in a Children’s Center on my Community College campus. The kids there run from 2-5 in age and all of them are either kids of people going to college or staff who work at the college. Then there are the minority that belong to the community around there :D This is the reason why I have a soft spot for Min Ki. And it’s also the reason that, I feel like, I have a good grasp on kids that age *laugh* Because I’m surrounded by kids that age at work :) Ah. Just in case you’re curious: I absolutely LOVE children~<3 I adore them. Their pure way of thinking and their laughter and their need for attention. I loved when I finally worked there long enough that, right now, every single child can call me by my name (//U//) It is the greatest feeling. I can’t wait till I’m old enough to have my own *laugh* ~~Now you’re just getting to know me a little too well I guess. Hahaha~ It’s all just too much information, huh?~~

Oreo [Woohyun]

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 23:05:00 -1000

I was told that I’ve been ignoring Woohyun lately…which isn’t a lie really…I’ve just been having too many feels for other members ^^ So I have this for you all~<3 I didn’t put too much thought into names since this is the only time I’ll be using the character I created. You should DEFINITELY check this out because without that, this scenario wouldn’t exist :) And that’s it from me today~ Enjoy?

[EDIT: I forgot! Woohyun and the Reader Character are just dating O U O)b And again, enjoy?]

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Woohyun let out a sigh as he dropped onto the sofa beside you.

You smiled and turned to him, “Tired?”

He ran his hands through his hair and raked them back all the way to his neck, “Absolutely tired.”

You reached over and tucked some of his stray hairs behind his ear, “You did a good job though.”

He turned to you with a grin, “Thanks.”

He let his head roll back to rest on the back of the sofa and he slouched down a bit.

You stared at him a moment and you couldn’t stop the snicker that slipped past your lips.

“What?” he rolled his head to look at you. His eyebrow quirked up and he stared at you in anticipation.

“You have a bit of stuff right here.” you reached your hand out again and swiped your index finger at the corner of his lip.

He watched you pull your hand back and he noticed the small black crumb that you pulled away, “Ah!”

Woohyun wiped furiously at his mouth, “I thought I got it all.”

You popped your finger in your mouth, “Not all of it I guess.”

“Ugh.” he groaned, “I never want to eat another one of those again. Ever. If Sunggyu hyung ever brings a box of those over again I think I’m going to puke.”

You smiled and Woohyun continued to talk.

“She wanted to eat those before bed.” he groaned again, “And then she wanted me to read to her and then she wanted to draw. She even asked me if I could sing! Jagi! Me! Infinite’s Woohyun! She asked me if I knew how to sing! Can you believe that!?”

You covered your mouth as Woohyun ranted.

“She started to change into her dresses and kept pretending that she was a Princess.” he went on, “At one point, she even asked me if she could call my Mom. I thought I understood her you know. But today just threw me off. Maybe I’m not as good with kids as I thought I was.”

“And those Oreos, jagi!” he covered his face with his hands, “She ate more than me yet she’s okay. I feel like I’m going to have an Oreo seizure!”

You cracked up laughing, “It can’t be that bad.”

“She even told these really bad jokes.” he laughed softly, “But they were so bad that I couldn’t stop laughing.”

“Really?” you smiled, “Like what?”

“Like: Why can’t your nose be 12 inches long?” he repeated.

“Mm? I don’t know.” you smiled.

“Because then it would be a foot.” he snorted.

You laughed, “Ahh. That one. What else?”

“What do you call a boy named Lee that no one talks to?” he said after thinking.

“A boy named Lee?” you laughed, “I’ve never heard that one before! What’s the answer.”

He gave you a bland look, “Lonely.”

You processed the answer and Woohyun grinned when you bursted out laughing.

“Lonely!” you laughed. You almost doubled over in laughter and tears had already started to form from laughter.

Woohyun watched you as you laughed and he could feel his expression start to relax. Something about your laughing brought warmth to his heart. He could never explain in words what your laughter could do. Even on bad days, he felt like your laughter would brighten up even his worst mood.

“Okay. I have to admit. I tool Yoon Mi that first joke.” you said after your laughing fit subsided, “But that second one was all her.”

He rolled his eyes, “Why did I have a feeling that one of those jokes was yours?”

“Yah. Are you saying that I only have lame jokes?” you prodded him in the side with your finger.

“They’re not that lame.” he said honestly, “They’re just really geared to young kids. And you have a kid. So, it just adds up that way. I think it’s really endearing.”

You smiled, “You’re the first to think so.”

He leaned forward to kiss you softly, “Anyone who doesn’t think so can’t see the joy in carefree thinking.”

“Everyone just thinks its childish.” you smiled.

“You raised Yoon Mi to be a great kid.” he said after another kiss, “There’s no way a childish person could raise another life like you have.”

“You always tell me this, Woohyun.” you smiled, but a blush still colored your cheeks. You always heard it from him but it always made your heart expand in your chest.

“In exchange…I’ll tell you a little secret.” you smiled slyly at him.

Woohyun quirked up an eyebrow at you again. You having this look didn’t always mean a bad thing, but he could never be too sure, “What?”

“Yoon Mi asked Sunggyu to bring it over.” you laughed.

Woohyun opened his mouth but froze. His brain seemed to be working overtime, “What do you mean?”

“The Oreos.” you smiled, “Yoon Mi asked me to ask Sunggyu for her. So I did. She’s the reason that Sunggyu brought those over for her.”

“You mean he didn’t bring it for no reason?” Woohyun asked you.

You shook your head, “She had a reason.”

“And are you going to tell me why?” he asked you.

You glanced in the direction of Yoon Mi’s room and then turned back to Woohyun, “We watched a commercial.”

He blinked, “That’s it?”

“Mm.” you nodded with a small laugh.

“That’s it?” he repeated.

“Want to see the commercial?” you responded with another question, “It might clear up any questions that you have.”

“I guess?” he cocked his head to the side.

You pulled up your phone and went straight to the video that you had shown Yoon Mi earlier on in the week.

Woohyun watched the short minute commercial and felt a variety of emotions jumbled up in him.

“I…” he started then just sat silently.

“She asked me what a Dad was.” you told him softly, “And I told her that he’s someone that is with a Mom. And that he’s someone that a Mom loves.”

Woohyun stared at your side profile as you spoke softly; your eyes hadn’t left the screen of your phone.

“She asked if a Dad is someone she loves too.” you continued, “And when I told her ‘Yes’ she asked me to ask Sunggyu for a package of Oreos.”

Woohyun fidgeted a bit on the sofa, “Does that mean…she sees me as something like a Father figure?” he asked you.

He didn’t want to get his expectations too high.

“I think she does.” you nodded, “After all…you’re always with me. And I love you. You also love Yoon Mi. Isn’t that all the criteria that I gave her?”

“I’m not sure if I should cry or if I should be shouting in joy.” he admitted with a laugh, “The guys all said that even if you fell for me, Yoon Mi would be the Ultimate Boss.”

You laughed. You could just imagine Sungyeol or Hoya saying something like that to scare Woohyun.

“That’s not that far off the mark though.” you smirked at him, “If she didn’t like you, I would have dropped you like a hot potato.”

Woohyun’s eyes widened, “What!?”

You laughed at his expression, “I’m just joking. I had a feeling that Yoon Mi would really like you. It would just take a bit of time. But all things take time.”

He smiled, “It’s worth it though.”

“I’m glad you think so.” you smiled back, “So any other thoughts?”

“I never wanted to eat another Oreo for a while.” he sighed, “But after hearing the reason for it…I think I would eat a truck load of Oreos for Yoon Mi.”

Infinite’s 翼

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 21:00:00 -1000

Infinite’s 翼

5 things you thought about Infinite's recent Japanese album.

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 19:58:24 -1000

O U O Ahm…hmmm. 5 things at random? Shoots. Okay :D

Sunggyu sings a Japanese version of ‘Because’ but in the ending bit where he sings and then basically echos himself is weird OTL It’s not written out in the lyric book but if it were to have been written down, it would look like this:
愛が眠れないじゃない / [원하잖아]
これ以上苦しめないで / [머물지 마]
遠くなればなるほど / [멀어질수록]
どんどん近くに感じて / [점점 더 가까이에 있고]
忘れようとするほど / [계속 이렇게]
君だけがもっと欲しくなる
:S I don’t know if they meant to put in the Korean echo or not but it’s weird. If you translate both the Korean and Japanese bits then it’s not that bad as far as the meaning goes [the first one doesn’t make any sense at all OTL]. But it’s really strange. I mean…he had to re-record the track so why didn’t they think about re-recording the echo? You know? [D: UNLESS IT’S A MISTAKE. Oh gosh.] *laugh* It’s a really petty thing for me though because the track itself sounds great :)
Talking about re-recording. I always think this but why can’t they re-record a song that they’ve already done with lines that are distributed better? Sungyeol is getting more and more confident with his singing, at least I really think so, but they keep to the original line up for the song. They could shift their lines around to accommodate him better, don’t you think? Unless he’s not confident with his Japanese…OTL They should get him to sing more.
GUYS. The revamped version of 날개. Oh. My. Sweet. Gosh. *laugh* 날개 is one of my favorites and to see that there’s a Japanese version now and that the music got an upgrade is seriously awesome. [My Mom couldn’t tell the difference = u = But I can. And that’s enough for me *laugh*]
Going off of that, I really want a Japanese version of Hysterie!! D: So many more current songs are getting their Japanese counterparts but Hysterie hasn’t yet! It’s my favorite Infinite song of all time so it’s a bit disappointing that it hasn’t been done yet ; 3;
Um. I really like this album O U O I honestly can’t really think of a major 5th thing I thought. It makes up for talking too much in the other points though. Ahahaha~<3

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Tue, 11 Jun 2013 17:26:34 -1000

Request: Break [Sungyeol]

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 23:37:00 -1000

Request: You try to tell him you love him but he keeps interrupting — Sungyeol

O U O Just some small trivia~<3 It won’t affect your reading at all but it’s something I put a lot of thought into…so…if you’re interested you can read this long note, if not go ahead and skip this~.
Love in Korean is 사랑 (sarang), Lollipop[I cheat a bit because it should really be Candy > 3<] is 사탕 (satang), Lettuce is 상추 (sangchu), Lion is 사자 (saja), Lift is 상향 (sanghyang) [this one is a really rarely used word though ^^], and Line is 선 (seon)…at least I’m pretty sure these are all correct. Anyway, I chose words that all started with an ‘S’ sound in Korean but come across as ‘L’ words in English. > 3< There were actually less than I thought there would be. OTL But you’ll see how it plays out in the scenario *laugh* Enjoy?

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You watched Sungyeol sit and flip his bangs across his forehead. His brow was furrowed and he couldn’t seem to sit still.

“What are you doing?” you asked him finally before your curiosity ate you alive.

He turned to you and gave you a toothy grin, “Trying to see which looks better on me.”

He flipped his bangs over to the right side of his face with a sigh, “Does it look better on this side?”

He flipped it back to the left, “Or this side?”

There was something about the way he asked you that made you smile.

His eyes focused back on you and he quirked up an eyebrow, “Yah. What’s that creepy smile for?”

You jutted out your lower lip, “Hey! It’s not a creepy smile!”

He gave you a playful grimace, “It’s actually pretty creepy.”

You snorted and tossed a cushion off the sofa at him. Sungyeol just laughed as he dodged to the side and the cushion went sailing past him.

He reached for the cushion and tossed it back to you. While he was reaching you couldn’t help but to appreciate the length of Sungyeol’s arms. His arms that seemed to always wrap perfectly around you.

As you drank in his appearance Sungyeol stared back at you. Your eyes seemed to be staring at him, yet at the same time he felt like you were seeing through him at something else.

“Hey.” he called you softly and waved his hand in front of your face.

You blinked and shook your head lightly, “What?”

“You looked like you were zoning out.” was all he said.

You smiled, “I’m okay.”

“If you say so.” he shrugged.

You smiled at the mess his bangs had become. Hairs were splayed in every which direction but it really only served to make him look that much more adorable.

Your heart gave a shaky ‘thump’ in your chest, your lips seemed to dry, and your hands seemed to become clammy.

“Sungyeol?” you called him softly.

He turned to face you as he continued to try and arrange his bangs, “Hm?”

He noticed the fiddling of your fingers and the pink flush that seemed to appear on your face and his heart jumped in his chest.

“I l—” you started.

“Lion?” he cut you off.

You felt your jaw slip open as you tried to process what just happened, “Huh?”

“Weren’t you going to say ‘Lion’ just now?” he laughed.

You shook your head, “Not even close!”

“Then what?” he laughed.

“I l—” you started again.

“Lollipop?” he cut you off once more.

“Sungyeol!” your voice sounded exasperated but Sungyeol’s grin didn’t dim.

“Was I wrong again?” he smiled.

“Of course you were!” you huffed, “Won’t you just let me finish my sentence!?”

“Fine. Fine.” he waved a hand at you, “Go ahead.”

“I l—”

“Lettuce!” he cut in.

“…”

“Jagi?”

“I l—”

“Line!”

“L—”

“Lift!”

“Sungyeol…”

He grinned at you, “Yes?”

You couldn’t hold back your frown. You tried your best; you really did. But it slipped out. Your heart seemed to sink down a bit and you shook your head, “Nothing.”

You turned your body on the sofa and he found himself staring at your profile.

He sighed softly and tied his bangs back into an apple ponytail and, on his knees, waddled over to the sofa, “Jagi.”

You didn’t respond. He knew that it was reasonable considering he cut you off so many times.

“I knew what you were trying to say.” he said.

You glanced at him out of the corner of your eye but quickly looked straight ahead. You hardly acted spoiled with Sungyeol, but you were feeling a bit bitter. So you’d let it slide just this once.

“I just don’t want this to come about so quickly.” he said and scratched his head, “I don’t know if you understand what I mean or not. But couples jump to words to quickly. I know that you’re going to say because I think them too.”

You turned your head slightly in his direction.

“It’s not that I’m afraid that you’ll regret it;” he said slowly, “I just don’t want our relationship to boil down to just words. Aren’t actions always stronger words?”

“So you won’t ever let me say it?” you asked him.

He perked up at the sound of your voice. You weren’t completely icing him out, for which he was grateful.

“No. It’s not like that. I won’t let you say it right now though.” he shook his head, “I know exactly how you feel. Trust me. For now…let’s steer clear of that word.”

He paused to await your reaction. After a second you turned to face him fully and you gave him a short, single, nod. He smiled back in relief.

“Thanks.” he breathed out and gave you a quick peck on the cheek.

“Anyway…” he continued, his face now taking on a slight shade of pink, “When the times comes you should let me say it first.”

UNNIE! WORLD TOUR CONCERT! OMFG! Do you plan to go? Where would you go? :D

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 00:39:33 -1000

[For those who haven’t seen it yet~ There is this video (//U//)b]

And O U O YES. *laugh* I’ve already told my Mom that no matter when it is, I’m going to take off a few days from school and go to see them. [We were actually in the process of trying to see if my whole family would go on the trip but only me and my Mom would go see the concert OxO It’s a slow moving conversation…because I don’t want to take my sister when she has no interest in them at all :S I feel like it would just kind of bum me out…I apologize if that makes absolutely no sense at all] And if anything I’d be going to the LA one :D Unless Hawaii is included in that etc at the end *laugh* Which I doubt it is~ But a girl can dream, can’t she? [I was also debating on NY for the sole reason that I’ve been to LA before but never been to NY. Hahaha~ I keep being told: “It’s going to cost more! D:< LA is convenient!”] What about you, Anon?

D: why is l's story so popular and hoya's want story has so little attention?

Sat, 08 Jun 2013 23:10:34 -1000

O U O Series tend to get less attention just because there are more parts. At least, that is what I honestly believe. It’s much easier to read a one-shot in one sitting and be content with that versus having to tune in every time to read a whole story that’s broken down in to multiple pieces. [As a writer though, writing multiple pieces is more fun just because it allows us to expand and elaborate on things we normally wouldn’t in a single one-shot] *laugh* Don’t let it bother you though, Anon~<3 The notes aren’t an indication of how many people are reading it. It doesn’t bother me so please don’t let it bother you either. Okay? :)

And if you’re really, really concerned about it then think of it this way: Myungsoo’s recent one-shot got 50+ notes but Hoya’s Want Series has gotten a total of 130+ notes over a span of 7 chapters~ :D And that’s amazing in itself, is it not?

Don't [Myungsoo]

Fri, 07 Jun 2013 23:22:00 -1000

I have reached that stage where I write things and delete them quickly because I’m quick to judge it. And then hate it :S So I apologize. That’s exactly why I didn’t have an update yesterday. No matter how much I wrote or what I wrote I ended up trashing it all. I worked on this almost all day today because at one point I really hated it but then I fell in love with it. In the end, I’m really happy with how it came out but…I’m kind of torn D: I’ve kind of lost my mind and I don’t know if this is really good or if it’s complete garbage and I’m just thinking it’s good because I like it *laugh* OTL Still I really hope you enjoy?

I used this song as inspiration. I would be happy if you listen to it while you read because the bolded words throughout the scenario are the lyrics that I spent an hour translating myself ; U ; It’s a personal favorite of mine. And as always, I can’t guarantee the accuracy of the lyrics since I’m not fluent in Korean~<3 [I do my best with what I know though]

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“Can you wait a little bit? I’ll come and pick you up.” he said to you softly.

You could only manage a furious nod of your head as you tried your best to suppress the sniffles.

“Tell me.” he started but you sniffled at the same time, “Tell me, where are you right now?”

You choked down on your sob and looked around at the street signs, “I’m…I’m in front of the station. You know the one. Where we always met. Before.”

The broken sentences you used made his heart clench in his chest.

“Did the person you love leave you behind?” he said softly.

Immediately, he knew it was the wrong choice of words. He heard a muffled sob from the other end. You probably pressed your hands to your face to block out your expression from people passing by as tears streamed down your face. He cursed himself for making you cry more.

He shouldn’t be taking out his jealousy on you. It wasn’t your fault that you started to date someone before he could ask you out.

“I’m sorry. I’ll come and get you so wait right there.” he apologized.

“Okay.” you sobbed out.

He hung up and quickly ran out of his room.

He passed Sunggyu on his way out and he wasn’t shocked when his arm was latched onto, “Yah. Where are you going?”

“I have something that I have to do.” he replied.

Sunggyu frowned, “That bad.”

He frowned in response and nodded.

Sunggyu sighed but let his arm go, “Don’t do anything crazy.”

He nodded and continued to run out. He grabbed his coat on the way out and two hats as he shoved his feet into his pair of unlaced boots.

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You did your best to try and stay in the shadows. It wasn’t too hard seeing as night had already fallen. Still, people passing by seemed to look at you. The after effect of your crying didn’t help. You looked like you had a bad case of the hiccups.

“Hey.” a voice huffed at you.

You turned to face the hunched over person standing beside you. He had on a slightly heavy black coat and had a hat on his head. When he stood up and your eyes met a dark, almost, black you felt a breath of relief pass through your lips.

“Myungsoo.” you sobbed.

He gave you a slight grin and lifted his hands to slap a hat onto your head, “Cover up your face.”

You tugged the item down further on your head to try and hide your tear stained face, “Thank you.”

“Come on. I’ll walk you home.” he laced his fingers through yours and tugged you forward. The warmth of his hand was enough to set a small bubble of tears to surface.

He turned to you with a small sigh, “Let’s go. Let’s go.”

You wiped at your face with the sleeve of your jacket. You opened your mouth to ask him something but he quickly said, “Because it’s cold.”

With that said he tugged you so you stumbled into a walk. His grip on your hand was secure but not stifling. And he didn’t pull you as he walked; he slowly kept pace with you only a step ahead.

“Thank you for coming to get me, Myungsoo.” you whispered to him. If you raised your voice anymore you might draw unnecessary attention to him and your voice might just fail you.

“What’s so good about that person who makes you cry?” he asked you.

You squeezed your eyes shut, without having to stop walking, because Myungsoo always brought this up with you.

“You don’t know.” he sighed.

“No!” you gasped out, “I—”

“You’re the only one who doesn’t know…” he said slowly then trailed off. He couldn’t ever finish this sentence out loud. To complete the sentence with, ‘that I love you’ was impossible.

He glanced back at you over his shoulder. You had bowed your head and your shoulders hand slumped down. You were the complete picture of dejection.

‘Because of my slow pace, a painful love has taken its hold.’ he thought to himself, ‘If only I had moved faster.’

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He waited beside you as you unlocked the front door to your place. The door swung open and the dark open space of your flat spread out in front of him.

You flicked on the lights and Myungsoo took in the changes that the place had undergone since he was last here.

A slightly more feminine air filled the room. He suspected that it was the cause of having a boyfriend. You had become slightly more girly in your love for him.

“Thanks for bringing me home.” you said to Myungsoo.

He stood outside your door and nodded, “No problem.”

You shuffled your foot around. Myungsoo had already brought you home, asking for more of him would be too much. You couldn’t do it.

He watched you fidget and weighed his options.

“Hey.” he said to draw your attention.

“Yes?” you replied.

“Want me to stay for a while?” he offered.

Your face seemed to light up, “Would you like to? I don’t mind at all!”

He smiled, “Sure. I’ll stay until you fall asleep.”

You ushered him in, “Okay! Would you like anything to drink or eat?”

He snorted and pulled down on the bill of your hat, “Have you seen your face? You should wash up and hit the sack.”

You felt a small flush overtake your face. You didn’t think you were as gorgeous as Myungsoo but you did have your pride as well. And to have someone who looked like Myungsoo say that to you was rather embarrassing.

“I’ll tuck you into bed.” he laughed softly, “Go wash up. I’ll meet you in your room.”

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It was a picture most Infinite fans would have killed to see: Myungsoo was sitting in a chair beside your bed; his hair falling lightly in his face and one of his legs crossed over the other.

His face turned in your direction when you stepped into the room and a soft smile spread across his face.

“I remember that shirt.” he said and pointed at your attire.

You tugged at the hem as you walked over to your bed, “Yeah. I wear it a lot at home.”

He nodded and you crawled under your sheets, “Get some sleep.”

You let out a comfortable sigh and your eyes shut. Before you drifted off you felt Myungsoo brush your bangs off your forehead before the tangled into the hair above your ear.

“Night.” he said softly.

It was the last thing you heard before you slipped into a dreamless sleep.

Myungsoo sat there with his fingers twirling your hair around.

“Does that person know that your smiling face is more beautiful than anyone else?” he said to no one.

You weren’t up to answer. But he was sure that you would have told him that your boyfriend did. Even though Myungsoo was sure that he didn’t.

“If he does…why is he making you cry?” he whispered.

He tucked your hair behind your ear and retracted his hand with a sigh.

He glanced at the bag you were carrying and reached his hand inside for your cellphone.

He glanced at the call log and your boyfriend hadn’t called in the past few hours. Myungsoo felt rage from the pit of his stomach simmer up. But when he looked back at your sleeping face the rage died down and he felt sadness instead.

He started a text.

“To you whose name I don’t know,” he said as he typed, “I have just one thing to request.”

Myungsoo turned to look back at you before returning his gaze to your phone, “Love her. Love her…the girl who I love.”

He read over the words he had typed and shook his head, “I can’t.”

In seconds he erased the words he had written.

“On my behalf,” he began again, “Don’t think of carelessly handling my girl.”

He swallowed the lump in his throat at his choice of words. Sure, you were his girl; only in the sense of being friends.

He sighed and deleted the words he had typed again.

As he sat and stared at the screen of your phone he decided against doing something crazy. He tucked the phone back in your bag and turned back to your sleeping face.

He though you would be luck with a dreamless sleep, instead you seemed to be plagued with nightmares if the furrow in your brow was any indication.

He brushed your hair back.

Softly, as if speaking to no one, Myungsoo murmured softly, “Love her. The girl who doesn’t know of my love for her.”

He glanced back at your bag he knew contained your cellphone, “Because you are the one she loves.”

His heart clenched in his chest, “Please love her more than I do.”

He bit on his lower lip and tilted his head back to stop the tears. When he returned his gaze to you he noticed a tear that slipped past your guard, and with a swipe of his finger Myungsoo wiped it away.

“Don’t let her cry again.”

unnie~! have you seen nell's new teaser already? :))

Wed, 05 Jun 2013 23:20:00 -1000

(> U <)b YES! I have! It’s actually been on loop the past hour *laugh* [If any of you reading this haven’t seen it yet, then you can check it out right here. Take a listen and fall in love with it~<3]

; A ; I want to stand in the rain with Kim Jong Wan. OTL I would suffer through catching a cold for it. But I’m just trying to envision what the full MV would be like ; U ;
All of them standing there, at first, dry.
Then the rain starts falling.
Slowly the room fills up with water.
Higher.
Higher.
Until…
The room is completely filled with water.
The music hits its peak.
Small particles float around as they move.
Light shines in and out of focus.
The music slows.
Then everything just…
Stops.
In a shimmer: Nell ‘Ocean of Light’ appears.

UGH. I’m already killing myself imagining it. ~~Forgive my overactive imagination!~~ Ahaha! And, of course, even if things don’t pan out that way I’ll still be impressed. I mean, it’s Nell :D

Out of curiousity mostly what bias do your readers have?

Wed, 05 Jun 2013 22:56:32 -1000

Hmmmm. Well, this is kind of hard because I’ve only ever spoken to a few people on a semi-constant basis :S So out of all the followers I have I only know about .02% of them ; A ; It’s a little sad. But I’m shy and people are shy so in the end it’s understandable, I guess.

But from the people I have talked with I would say that the bias leans towards Sunggyu :) Which is fairly expected, is it not? Especially since I’m Sunggyu biased. Coming in a close 2nd would be a tie between Dongwoo and Sungjong followed fairly closely by Sungyeol. And Woohyun, Hoya, and Myung are all pretty much tied for 3rd. [Though you really need to keep in mind that this is only based of the .02% of people I’ve actually had conversations with. This is in no way a basis of all the people reading my scenarios and in the end it really comes down to the fact that: We all love Infinite. Nothing more to it than that, honestly :D]

Want [Hoya] (Part 7 of 8)

Tue, 04 Jun 2013 22:01:00 -1000

:( I was typing today because I have a blister on the finger I normally rest my pencil/pen on OTL It’s right under the place where I put it *laugh* It’s kind of crazy. Still, Ahhh! I only have 1 more part of this to go :D I’m excited! Thanks for all the supportive mails about this Series~<3 I appreciate it~

Nothing has changed and my inspirational music is still this song~ :D And as always, you can find the other parts on my blog [because I wouldn’t suggest jumping into a Series at its near end *laugh*] With that all being said: Enjoy?
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Through the bars of the cell Hoya could see the bright rays of the sun shining through. He let out a soft sigh as he rubbed at his eyes. He didn’t manage to get a single wink of sleep and the morning sunlight was stinging his eyes.

He held up his hand and blocked it out with the back of his hand.

He stared into his palm silently.

Even though the sunlight was warm he still felt that it wasn’t as warming as the feeling of your hand holding his yesterday.

It was crazy, but he kept telling himself that you wouldn’t just let him die. It wasn’t crazy because he thought that you didn’t care for him. It was crazy because he knew that you didn’t have enough power to do anything to save him.

The executioner had a list of names and Hoya’s was the first one on it.

He wouldn’t give up on you though. Because he knew that you wouldn’t give up on him.

He would just believe in the warmth, and the strength, that he felt from your hand.

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You threw your hands up in frustration and in a fit of anger you swiped all the papers off the top of your desk.

You dropped back into your chair and threw your arms across the table. Then you put your chin on the table and stared out blankly at the wall across the room.

Since leaving Hoya the other day you spent the entire time searching through the library and the archive. You tried to find something—anything—that would get Hoya out of this situation. But so far, you couldn’t find a loophole of any kind.

It was vexing.

You spent so much time with Hoya that there was no way that life would be the same without him.

You could feel tears starting to burn your eyes and you sat up straight. This was absolutely no time to cry! If you cried then you’d get nothing done.

The sun was already rising outside causing your heart to lurch in your chest.

“How many hours does that leave me?” you murmured to yourself.

If you could have made a wish to make the sun stop rising you would have done it in a heartbeat. Even worse than that, you thought about what Hoya must be feeling right now, seeing the sun rising in his cell.

You stood back up with a renewed sense of urgency, “There’s got to be something I missed!”

You grabbed a jacket and threw it on over your shirt and ran out of the room.

You grinned to yourself. These shirts and pants you kept were the best thing. You didn’t think you could move half this speed in your usual gowns.

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“I’m really sorry.” he sighed.

Hoya shook his head, “You don’t have to be sorry.”

Dongwoo raised his head slightly from his bow, “Isn’t it my fault that you’re in there?”

Hoya gave Dongwoo a crooked grin, “Oh. Did I run away with you Princess Dongwoo?”

Dongwoo felt his jaw fall open. It was only when Hoya started to snicker to himself that Dongwoo let himself laugh.

“Really, Dongwoo.” Hoya said, “If it wasn’t for you and that kid, Sungjong, I would’ve just been offed that first day.”

Dongwoo frowned at the thought.

“But you gave me a few more days to get out and enjoy myself.” Hoya finished.

“Enjoy?” Dongwoo sighed, “Did you actually enjoy yourself while you were on the run? I’d probably just be panicked the whole time.”

Hoya raised his hand back up and clenched and unclenched his fist, “There were its good points.”

All Dongwoo could do was cock his head in confusion, “What could have been good about being hunted down?”

Hoya laughed softly, “It’s hard to explain, Dongwoo.”

“Okay.” was all Dongwoo could reply.

But he knew from the tender look on Hoya’s face: something happened that Hoya, from the bottom of his heart, thought was good.

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“What…are you wearing?” a voice called into the library.

You turned around and found yourself looking at your Father, the King, standing in the doorway.

He was carrying a cup of something in his hands as he approached you, there was soft steam coming out from it.

“It’s comfortable.” you replied and turned back to the books you had spread across the table.

You heard him sigh; you were sure that he probably shook his head to accompany that sigh as well.

“Here.” he said and placed the cup down on the table near you, “I heard that you didn’t go to the dining room for breakfast.”

You glanced at the cup before resuming flipping through books, “Thanks.”

“Don’t you think you should get something into your system?” he asked you, worry laced his voice.

You placed your hand on the page you were looking at before turning to your Father, “What are the odds that the tea is going to knock me out until evening?”

He sighed, “When did I raise you to be so untrusting?”

“You didn’t.” you shook your head, “I’ve become untrusting on my own. I’m going to do everything I can to try and save Hoya. Taking a break for some tea isn’t going to do it. I can wait till after he’s safe to eat and sleep.”

Your Father pulled out a chair from the table and took a seat, “Is it really so important that—”

“Hoya is not an ‘it’. This situation is not called an ‘it’.” you cut him off, “And saving him is important.”

“And what have you found?” he asked you slowly. His voice was soft as he asked.

You absolutely didn’t want to say that you found nothing.

You couldn’t bring yourself to say it.

“Nothing, huh?” he sighed. You hated that he didn’t sound at all shocked.

“I’m not going to stop even if you tell me there’s no way.” you breathed out.

“Sweetheart.” he called you softly, he placed his hand over yours, “There is a way.”

You ripped your eyes away from the book to stare down your Father, “There is!?”

He gave you a small smile, “Mm. Just one though.”

You swallowed the lump in your throat. You clenched your hand into a fist and tried to draw on Hoya’s strength.

Finally you managed to whisper out, “Are you going to tell me…?”

I was left with

Just one thing I believed in

That was surely now:

The feeling of the warmth of your hand

I was just wondering how that b-day card for your blog got to you.

Mon, 03 Jun 2013 21:35:24 -1000

O 3O)b The mail. Or well…@____@ I’m not really sure what you mean, Anon. It did come by mail. If you’re wondering how it got to me in the mail then what happened was I gave my address out. Er…like….the person who mailed it mentioned that she had made a card and then I was greedy and wanted to see it *laugh* So she offered to mail it to me, for which I will be forever grateful ; U;, and she did~<3 It even came with a picture of Infinite from my all time favorite Era (//U//) It’s also probably my favorite picture of all time from that Era~<3 *laugh*

Anyway, yes. That’s how it happened :) I don’t have my address anywhere on my blog, just in case you plan to ask. I don’t quite feel safe with it out for every single person who sees my blog to see ^^

Hi Unnie! Lately I've been stressed because its that end of the school year crunch and stuff. So I was wondering if you could just tell me about how your day went, or please just write whatever is on your mind. A rant, a thought, I don't know, anything you want. Whatever you write always help calm me down, even the little A/N cheer me up(: Btw, I died at your wordplay joke, I'm a sucker for those! I'm sorry if this is too much to ask for..but thanks anyways for listening! I feel better already(:

Mon, 03 Jun 2013 20:12:17 -1000

Hey Anon :)

I’m not happy to hear you’re stressed D: Especially since college is out so…I’ve been really low on stress. Only the whole “Scenario ruining” fiasco gave me stress lately *laugh* But are you sure you just want to hear about my boring self? O 3 O If you’re sure…

Ah. Well, today I had to go to work and I very smartly decided to wear white…and the kids had a painting activity…Haaaah. I had to try extra hard to not get dirty but I kept getting paint all over my hands and I couldn’t even push my bangs back. I looked like I murdered a paint set honestly. And thankfully I didn’t dirty my shirt ; A; For which I’m extremely happy.

Other than that tiny thing, I had a really good day playing with the kids :) One of them even drew me a picture of a tree and a car on a railroad track. Hahaha! [I do admit that I think of Min Ki constantly at work though. Like, “Ah. He’d love those colors.” or “I can see Min Ki playing with those.” ^^ It’s both calming and a little sad. Just…to think that such a precious person just came from my mind. OTL]

O U O I’m glad that it cheered you up~<3 I wrote it on a whim and I had to stop for a minute to just laugh XD And then I had to explain to my Mom who was giving me “The Look”. To which she rolled her eyes *laugh*

> 3<)b Feel better though. Think about how good you’re going to feel when this crunch time is over; when you know you did your best and now you can relax. It’ll feel so good and worth it in the end. So I know you can do it! Chin up! :D

Photo

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 23:31:29 -1000

Erica eonnie I was wondering if you wouldn't mind making an edit similar to this one of yours (post/51839641028) but if it could be more darker? >< And if it could be gyu still. Whichever picture you like of him is fine. Sorry if its to much to ask for. Thanks if you do it or not. (:

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 23:22:40 -1000

; A; You guys are encouraging me to play with editing more and more. I hope you know that I’m only good at certain things though ^^ Hahaha~ But sure! I can see what I can do.

Want [Hoya] (Part 6 of 8)

Sat, 01 Jun 2013 20:09:00 -1000

Hey guys~<3 Long time no see-nario! *laugh* > O < Ahaha! Man that was a lame joke~<3 ~~I love it!~~ :D Word-play, yes?
I had taken a break today because my hand was cramping from trying to rewrite those scenarios I messed up ; u ; And I found myself, instead, writing here on my laptop *laugh* I have a one track mind lately. And like I said: I really want to finish this Series >| I’m determined to get it done! The inspirational song, as always, hasn’t changed and you can find it right here. And this is part 6 so if you haven’t read Parts 1, 2, 3, 4, or 5 yet I recommend reading those before jumping headfirst into an ongoing Series :D So I hope you enjoy?
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You crossed your arms over your chest and you averted your gaze from the guard sitting across from you in the carriage.

The whole hour you were traveling he just stared at you with a twisted grin on his face. He never made a movement to say anything and every time you turned to see how Hoya was doing he snorted under his breath. It just made you all the more angry because you couldn’t see Hoya through the cloak of night.

Even the silence was deafening. You tried to focus on the sound of turning wheels and the clip-clop of the horses drawing the carriage. The silent grin of the man across from you drowned out all sounds.

You swallowed and decided to break the silence, “What…will happen to Hoya when we return?”

His grin seemed to darken and spread further, “Oh, I don’t know. Maybe he’ll be beheaded.”

You clenched your hands into tight fists in your lap.

Beheaded? Hoya?

It made you sick to your stomach to even think the words.

“You should have expected that already.” he laughed, “I mean, a guard running away with the Princess. How far did you think you both were going to get? You dragged him down. He might have gotten a clean getaway on his own, but he had to drag your weight with him.”

You flinched at his accusations. It was what you were thinking. But now added to that was the fact that you might cause Hoya’s death. That weighted on you heavier. It was suffocating to think about it.

“And I can just imagine the reward that I’m going to get for bringing back the Princesses’ kidnapper and the Princess herself.” he let an amused laugh escape him before he turned his grin back at you, “Maybe I’ll even get to be King.”

Your lips parted in shock; a revolted shiver raced down your body resulting in chicken skin dotting your arms.

You narrowed your gaze and your voice dropped to a hissed whisper, “Never. Not on your life.”

He laughed again and leaned forward; his face was suddenly too close for comfort, but his grin still just as twisted, “Oh, it won’t be on my life, love. It’ll be on Hoya’s.”

His words stung like a slap in your face. You reared back and settled for glaring daggers at him; though he just seemed to enjoy the reaction he drew out of you.

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Hoya was reminded of prisoners that ran empty tin cups along the bars of cells. He blamed it on the fact that he was now sitting behind a set of bars much like those. He didn’t have a cup to run across the bars. He would have used the sword he had but it was taken away. He was left to sit in silence, and the dark, with nothing better to do than twiddle his fingers.

His eyes kept watch on the carriage he knew you were in. He wished he could sit with you for no reason other than to be with you. The guard would be an easy second reason. He didn’t like the look of that guy’s face. He vaguely recognized him from the castle; though that wasn’t the problem. Hoya just didn’t like the twisted look he got on his face sometimes. Like he was much smarter than everyone else and people only said stupid things that amused him.

It did not sit well with him that right now you were alone with him in that carriage.

But right now, there was nothing he could do. He was behind bars on a one way trip back to the kingdom. And it made him frown to think that as soon as he was back, he would have to return to that dark, damp, cell that he had first been locked away in.

So with a sigh, Hoya crossed his legs and lay back in the cage.

The stars up above seemed to be dimmer than he remembered.

“Maybe they’re mourning for me.” he snorted.

You had both been so close. You were right outside of the gates to the next town over. If you both had gotten out of there earlier you could have been in the next town. It would have put more distance between the both of you and the guards who were on the prowl.

Still, close wasn’t nearly close enough.

Hoya held his hand in front of his face, palm open.

“I could have pulled her faster.” he sighed, “I could have walked faster. I could have made us take fewer breaks.”

He clenched his hand into a fist.

“But then she might have fallen. She would have been tired out. She might have collapsed.” he reprimanded himself for his thinking.

“I could have planned better.” he finally scolded himself.

Somewhere in the back of his mind a small voice laughed, ‘Planned what? Planned to kidnap the Princess better?’

With one final resigned sigh, Hoya slipped into a fitful night’s sleep.

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You didn’t realize how much you hated your gowns. You tugged at the lower half of the dress with an aggravated huff. Even though you were forced to wear pants and top for less than a week you missed it already. Definitely more than you thought you would.

But as you imagined the look on your Father’s face if he saw you dressed like that you swallowed your complaints instead.

The tapping of your shoes on the floor echoed down the hall as you made your way to the prison area.

The guards at the door looked at you then at each other. You had permission to see Hoya but the guards had been extra cautious. If something happened on their watch it just spelt trouble.

One of the guards nodded and opened the door for you but didn’t shut it behind you. He, instead, stood in the doorway and kept a mindful eye on you.

You got to Hoya’s cell and he immediately turned to smile lightly at you.

“Hey.” he grinned and raked his fingers through his hair, “Is my hair a mess?”

You pursed your lips together, “I don’t know how you can be so calm behind there.”

“Because you’re here.” he laughed.

You frowned and clasped your hands tightly in front of you, “You said the same exact thing to me last time.”

“Well, that’s because you said the same thing to me too.” he rolled his eyes at you, “You were brought up with a good education. Can’t you entertain me with new and more thought provoking questions?”

You looked away from Hoya and shut your eyes as you exhaled, “What are we going to do?”

Hoya felt a torn smile cross his face, “That’s not exactly the kind of question I want to hear.”

You whipped your head back to him, your eyes open and blazing, “But Hoya! Tomorrow—”

“Calm down.” he smiled at you.

“I can’t calm down!” you almost yelled.

“Hey. You’re going to go back to the first conversation we had in here again. I thought you were going to initiate a new conversation.”

“Hoya!” you snapped.

He sighed and lowered his head, “I’m sorry.”

You stepped up to the bars of his cell and, as if he knew your train of thought, he slipped his hand through the bars just as you raised your hand. Outside of his cell you held tightly to his hand.

“Can’t we just run away again?” you breathed out. You weren’t completely serious but you weren’t joking either. But a voice clearing his throat behind you reminded you of the guard watching over you. You shook your head, “Sorry.”

Hoya grinned and slipped his other arm between the bars, “Come on. Stop that. Those wrinkles on your forehead are only going to get worse if you glare like that.”

He rubbed his knuckles between your eyebrows with a laugh.

“Princess.” the guard called out, “Time’s up.”

You shook your head again, “I don’t want to go.”

“Princess.” his voice was more firm this time around.

“Hey.” Hoya called you, “Listen. Just go.”

He released your hand and pulled both his arms back into his cell.

You stood frozen for a moment.

This couldn’t be it. This just couldn’t.

You clenched the front of your gown in both your hands and you stiffly turned around to return back to the main part of the palace.

You were halfway back up the stairs when Hoya’s voice calling out your name stopped you. He didn’t tack on a ‘Princess’, he didn’t start by calling you ‘Princess’; he just called your name. It was so soft and breathy that you weren’t sure, at first, if it had actually been called.

You spun around on the step you were standing on, “Yes?”

Even through the dim lighting you could see Hoya smile at you, “I love you.”

Your hands fell limply from the clutch you had on your dress. You swallowed hard and spoke back a soft, ‘I love you too.’

All you saw was Hoya’s bright smile before the guard grabbed your arm and hauled you back through the door.

“Go back to your room, Princess.” he said to you when the door was shut.

You stomped down your foot, startling them both before you turned and ran back to your room.

There was a lot that still needed to be done.

You kicked off your heels and prayed that you’d have enough time.

Let’s both go beyond the night

As far as we can possibly go

To a place where no one knows